Just Real Wife

Slowly I began a morning, or an evening here and there without vomiting. I felt alive again! Although now came the sore back, sore feet and exhaustion.

My mentality began to shift, now the excitement was coming back.

Baby shower, name choosing, nursery shopping. It was becoming real.

The countdown to mat leave was on.

My husband and I went on a date night and stayed in a luxury hotel in the city. This was the first time we’d done anything together in months and it felt amazing. Reminded me of everything I loved and why we were doing what we were doing.

It wasn’t a baby-moon in the Maldives like you see on instagram. But for us it was better, it was US. Remember we’re not BIG people, we like to appreciate the little things. Not looking to show off or prove anything to anyone else.

We’re seven months in now and the constant bathroom wake ups during the night are getting worse. I thought this was getting me ready for newborn life (how naive was I).

Heartburn? Where do I start with heartburn. Something I had never experienced prior to pregnancy and thankfully not since!

It was a horrendous feeling, my morning sickness was better but then this heartburn brought on sickness again. Except this time the burn from vomiting hurt for the next 24 hours.

Once I figured out what it was I knew I just had to cut out everything that brought it on, and gosh was it a long list!

Shopping for baby clothes, nappies, breastfeeding items, nursery items was extremely fun! Albeit I had to sit down every 10 minutes and took me twice the time to walk half the distance of my husband!

With this fun, joy and excitement also came nerves, worry and complete overwhelming sensations. SHIT WAS GETTING REAL!

I started looking up laboring and birthing, reading everywhere that ‘winging it’ was the WORST idea and you’ll regret it.

But I couldn’t stay focused or interested long enough to read and learn any other options. I didn’t know what positions, what breathing, what food, or what music I wanted.

I didn’t want a birth plan or other ideas that could potentially get thrown out the window.

Cliche. cliche. but all I wanted was my husband in the room and a healthy baby!

I still say baby because at this stage we still didn’t know the gender.

We wanted one of the very few true surprises one can experience in their lifetime and gosh was it worth it!